Tria

I went out with Sam today and at first Toby wouldn’t leave us alone. I didn’t mind too much as I’ve been wanting to see Toby for a while, I like Toby a lot. He smiled at me and I didn’t know what to do with myself. I walked past him later on, but by then other people had got his attention. I’ve never said aloud what I’m about to write, but I need to get it out somehow and I just know if I told anyone that I know,  there would be a scandal.

I met Toby alone one day, we had organised it the day before when I had bumped into him by chance. We met that day in a hotel, it wasn’t a very nice hotel. The walls were brown, but I’m not sure that they’d always been that colour. He took me to a room on the second floor. He seemed different that day, he didn’t look me in the eyes very much. Once we were inside the room he started kissing me on the cheek. I was excited, but it all seemed so very out of the blue. Toby had never shown any interest in me what-so-ever. I laughed nervously, and he stopped. He scowled at me and I could have died, right there on the spot. I felt so embarrassed and unsophisticated. An amazing man had invited me to a hotel room for what seemed to be turning into an encounter of pure love and passion and I was giggling like an uncomfortable adolescent! He had a look on his face of disgust. He pushed me face first onto the bed and told me to be quiet. I was shocked, but I couldn’t say that I wasn’t turned on by how assertive he was being. I did everything he told me to do for the rest of that afternoon. And when it was over he got up and left. I hadn’t seen or heard from him since then, until today.